blues for State College
so much has happened here
we were a couple miles from this corner
when I asked her if she would be my wife
a few miles farther away is the spot
where her father’s heartburn turned out to be
something else entirely
I spent months eating Cheez-its, watching
In Living Color, nearly immobile
in the spare bedroom of a house nearby
not realizing the truth about the wiring
of my brain, or other truths
years later, she was in the same room when it ended
today I was ignored by someone who was my friend
or at least part of the same “married into it” team
and the brother-in-law who was her sole
family representative at our wedding
could barely bring himself to look at me
I wonder if it was worth it…
until they pile onto me on the couch
all arms and legs and energy and boyish laughter
9 March 2013
State College, PA
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